my problem-listener

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

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what a controversial previous post eh ?

it's a reminder for me and if it's possible, for you too :)

this post is some sort of related with my friend Amirah, latest post,

and this is her blog.

it made me realize something.

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when I was a school student, I was a happy kid.

people see me as a person with no problem. alhamdulillah :) and that's the way I always wanted it to be. I choose not to share my problems with anyone unless it's seriously necessary. the reason is simple, I'm a cool person, I dislike letting others know I have problem ;P

don't worry, alhamdulillah I was not stressed at all :)

but do you know, how I actually survived ? I actually do have my own problem-listener ;)

who ? who ? who ? who ? who ?

well, the answer is simple, it's Him <3

cerita lama dah tak ingat, tapi ini satu cerita kat kmkn :)

when I got my 2nd chemistry quiz result. it was the worst ever. chemistry had been my love for so long and to get such a heartbreaking result, my inner-self broke down, deeply, harshly,

the pain was unbearable.

on the same day, it was not only that, there were a few other thing that messed up my mind.

problem among friends, superiors and others.

I called abah in the morning, tell abah everything, almost cried but since the place was public, I hold it. malu lah ahaha. calmed me down a bit, thanks abah :)

I kept a low volume throughout the day.

I prefer to keep quiet rather than expressing my sadness or anger towards anybody else.

people have their own problems.

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after class duration ended, I went straight to surau al-huda and pray.

I let everything go.

countless tears fell down my cheeks.

I spent time in His house. kept on telling Him my problem over and over,

how I was so weak to bear with all of it. until I fell asleep.

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after I was awake, subhanallah, it's like a brand new day, oh well eventhough it was actually on the same day but it was evening already. all the negative charges went away. I feel so refreshed.

I felt, at ease, light, calm.

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People listens but the answer they give may not be the best.

People aren't perfect.

Allah listens and give the best answer.

The best heart soother.

My own problem-listener :)

Hasbunallah wa nikmal wakeel <3

Believe, have faith, he'll guide us :)

jangan pula

hanya pulang kepadaNya bila duka.

tapi bila suka, lupakan terus.

kita hidup keranaNya,

mari sentiasa ingat padaNya

dalam setiap tingkah laku kita,

insyaAllah :)